Empty Bottle

Sometimes people drink as if they are rushing for bad scenarios to occur. You kinder like ask yourself what is really good about alcohol. If redirect that to me, my answer will be I DON’T KNOW. It is just at times you spend too much money drinking and even forgetting to by important things you really want. I used to drink like nobody’s business but it now good, since I don’t often. One thing I realized is that even if I though I had self control, I had no gain for what so ever. Seriously there was no massage in the bottle for me but just can not quit.

The Haunted Moments.

This is a quiet funny story but I just had to share it. Sometimes things happen at an unbelievable ways.

It was just after the recess on the middle September, few days from home and I had this crazy idea that I will forget to do something, since I might have that experience of handling my things at the campus. One day I fell asleep without knocking and it was just about 7-pm, I woke up in the middle of the night only to realize that I don’t have my keys with me. I though maybe some how it is just around and I can’t see it. In the morning before class I searched almost like every where but did not find them. When I came back from class I used rumza’s keys. Then in the middle of the day I felt asleep again. When I woke up, his keys went missing in my position. The search started but I finally found it at the side of the bed but still couldn’t find mine with in less than 30 minutes, there were lost again and the door was locked while I was inside. I did not know what to do and my phone was off, while I didn’t even have a charger. Then I started looking for a universal charger at the bag which I put my clothes, only to find my keys in there but no my room mate’s. I went out for 2 minutes and when I came back they were just at visible location. That’s when quickly left the room and came back at night. What a hell of a DAY I had. It was as if I was haunted. It is very silly of me to quickly panic when I think that something is wrong.

Young Water.

Small Waters.
Some experiences in life just seem so threatening and so unreal at good times. I am sorry but I will not explicitly write everything here since this situation was highly exclusive to me only and i was planning to keep it to myself for as long as times like this do not come. The times I need to release what has been and will always stick in my mind, as an experience, a trauma, and a real lesson.

Previous year (2009) I had a couple of downs with certain parts of my life and when I started I just though it wouldn’t hurt me that much, to excise my abilities and my emotions with just what I called “Blue Print”. But as time goes it became a real situation in my dark closet. Although at last I wasn’t deeply involved in acting on the responsibilities and real decision as I wasn’t aware of everything until it was done for.

It started as just revenge for making me have that desperate keen for years and for part of life excitement. At first I use my biological knowledge (stupid Acts), in an attempt to dodge descending the real common of it, since we have known each other for a while but then I lost count of days and ended up over pleasuring for a child of that age. After everything and the pursuing I needed space to collect my focuses and also to move on (with what was best for me) but was unfortunate for her, since life was not fair, certainly no fair.

Few months later I was on going with my daily life schedules, relaxing in another chapter (if you know what I mean), then a rumor braked the news of the year to me. In addition to that it was no longer, by then I was surprised and devastated with lot of question left. Is it true? Could it be me? Can I? Did it happen? What could have? Even now I am still shocked but sometimes relieved about it. I guess life is once and there is no time for rehearsals. I lesson learned always be careful on the decision you make before you make it.