Trouble At Home

here, have a say.

A call rings "chelist your brother in trouble".
Out of all usual issues, why legal trouble?
I swear if i could cancel, I’d really do it double.
Override the entire upcoming still to get faced
yesterday the girl I have crush for, said boyfriend arrested
relieved but at a side sad her emotions adjusted
in console I said shit happens, shit came home unexpected
I’ll defend my little man just hate gaining record.
Always believed I’ll make it in record time fluctuations fades hopes.
Paps looked and taught nothing, I learnt void from it
that occurred because I never knew the nigga
he never appeared when i didn't need the nigga
they say long gone but obviously that’s a ninja
wish I break it, irrelevantly I did spoke late
I frequently feel that interests are all made baits
so forgive for when I return not using the gate
say something, remind me June back (2010)
critically scared as she cried hurt in the back
I sworn, I blamed him for heredity pack
unless come clean its all gene fault
never praise raising a hand though my blood is bold
thickened from past hate that I kept in hold
that thought of making it filled heart ready to be sold
oh god let not prison mix with reputation
a bright start end with dark amputation
Certainly blood sacrifice won't hand him life ammunition
should I let rain pour while I’m still building a ark?
Sometime later as we dig we'll reach the core yolk
trouble also heavily affects the big town york
hate all extra times I waste working backwards
knowing the paint colour is red in the background
talent isn't enough wisely I was told
sorry, is my future that I’m currently try'na mould.

Druged Pleasure

Influence can lead to discovery....

The devil's drive is over
Faded in deep ecstasy high till she slept over
Designed the dream soon heavily fell colder
The room shaded with odour that match her terrified look as she turn sober
A naughty stranger for a prey, innocent pre-sellin’ her soul
With teases to unleash silver ink home
Hell broke loose as we crossed over to the zone
Tool radar indicated that hot spot the same i used as hole
Yelled harder, so bumped rougher neglectin’ the pace like ex con
No cover, she pissed wouldn’t feed shit as she got piped
So pined as possible reality visits lady wonder
Eyes red pondering the next move moulder
Funny the name didn't sink so then she screamed nigga, nigga
Echoing music to accelerate, it got furious with seed egger
Seem bold dirty don’t guess the stick stink finga
Maybe visa else so versa
Hide the C book, strict clean judge disgrace from your situation
You claimed wild, actual bad happen baby no simulation
Regretted pleasure filled her lost found mood
She forced the fake smile so smooth
Then named me the official dean whose so hood
So king I’ll rule the pussy maybe for good
Soak in; add taste that’s coke powder
So keen, row spill Flow River then grow flower
Suck off all deeds, ticket left no power
Intoxicate with fame all seem blur memo
brak weak but I made the scenes with that emo
Genital geographical animation like animal
Denial, certain she'll crave any more

Life Stages

Let’s go where life want to take you as long as your instincts directs you there as well.

I know this life is hard to live right

That’s why everyday I still fight

This stage is when I device a huge fright

Although I’m cashless right now, I’m here to compete

26 letters, plan till there’s food for everyone to eat

Being me is in me like I’m one blood complete

Test me for I ain’t a fraud persona

I never enforced anyone to consider me bright personally

It’s just so gruelling to conclude not convinced

I sweated every phase that I ever reached

At first I felt different then had to embrace it

Started just as an negligible nerd till I raised me

The next will be me out there living it all at one

A nigga could only be granted one life

I’m 21, at this age I’m also thinking about a wife

Days are too short to delay till you fully beard and grey

Hate or love each determines progress

It’s so significantly fluttering though you ain’t saying congrats

Some say, same shit, hey it’s just boring

Flourished in a style that makes other rain on ‘em like pouring

Routine routes that distinct me foreign

Keep hollering, that’s all I need to get my stages going

Lost Love

This is dedicated to the love of my heart, for i being far and lacking communication with her kills her deep inside.

I hate my life right now, how can I convince you, my love?

Me missing you is a trauma but i hope you ain't doing any drama.

Patience, believing if we survive this we would be fine forever.

Wonder never, if ever would we settle to family ever

Because you'd always be the one through varied fever

All problem life throw at us with love they are resolvable
We isolated by ferocity distance that’s why we divisible

You may think I’m enjoying, wish I did too but without you true joy become so impossible.

Dammed lady understand that I fucken miss the hell out of you like crazy.

Not calling doesn't mean I don’t care, I just don't have.

I know what I said on April fool appeared kinda real

Hope it ain’t responsible for your respond to be rare

Turn to be selfish at times, but sometimes i do learn

Call me stupid but I’m still the same stupid you felt for and did love.

Like I you're lost, not to worry my heart will find your love.

Sitting in this box, I’m praying it’s not too late

I desire not to witness when the perfect two fade.

Best Of The Worst

 I know what you're thinking..... I am not really having grudges agains anyone but i simulated for you.

Stubbed in the back but with time I healed quicker 
Instead of struggling to get back I'm getting better
Amazing how we manage this far together without a speaker

But the graph shows some uncertainty towards me since

They both independent on each but ain't on me for an inch

No offense to the ex & why, but this sparks a sense of hilarity in essence

Boy u scared she could still, got you wonderin' about a fence

I guess you should consider

Like if i put 5 bricks, 4 you blow 3 and put two

Would it make the wall mine or yours if it was to be owned by one?

I'd hate to be her, suppose is a dilemma that ain't won

Forgive for I did not alert, the damn battle is still on

So let’s act to our mutual like is all okay

Let’s not talk about chicks like there’s no pain

Let’s let her confused, like is sort of a game

Let’s, let’s, let’s just fuck each G.O.X like there’s not rule to obey

In the end we just gotta face the joker card

I hope I'm wining when I see you two losing some parts

Sluts get it that even if we reunite won’t be similar to before you broke hearts.

Hope you still remember that annoying message about sex king

Hope you clearly recall what I said about our end and kill

I never understood how the fuck a lady takes short term assets as keen

But for all I care now you both could take yo honeymoon to hell.

Yeah it’s a long story but to us is still so memorable

Aren't you ashamed nigga, your selfishness is undeniable

I did you favour but for me you made it unfavourable

That was the last time I'll kick start an idiot scavenger

I won’t let a bitch ruin me by unnecessary anger

Never, now judge me and say never too

And bitch don't you dare ask me if I ever want revenge

To hell I said that now you can kiss my dick to full range

Hoe you're the worst best girl I ever had

And dick you're the best worst friend I ever had

Good Girl Gone Bad

When I met her she was still new to the place, I was the first guy to her, she was so innocent, and I was so hoping a lot, she was so nice and perfect if that is the word. We spend precious time, memorable moments that now feels like it was just a dream. She talked about church, the lord and being decent to others. We made promises even if I knew promises always get broken somehow, but at that time it felt so real and guaranteed.

Somehow I felt so insecure about her room mate, the one who was giving me an eye wink when she was looking a way. She seemed so wild, egomaniac and obsessed with herself. I thought she was just being jealous but it was something more than that, she was evil if that’s suits her.

Well I ignored everything like it’s just an ordinary life, but I was not aware of what was happening. She invited all sort of guys and friends who were mainly eccentric in a way. As work stole my time away from her, another work was applied in her head. I started to feel the gap between us growing so mysteriously, well she rejected my calls and my visits. Till the day I went unannounced only to find her with a male friend and she looked so sorry that it granted her my forgiveness over everything but it did not change anything. After that experience I did another of those surprise visit, this time finding her with a homo-looking lady friend who smoked in her room, using her matches (which she had I don’t know for what reason). She treated me like I don't exist until left the room as frustrated and pissed as I was. After months I tried calling her but she chewed my head on the phoned, annoyed I dropped the stupid call. Couple of month later I came across her wearing scary snoop make over, she walked those styles you know those you usually see self-high classed girls walking by.

Now after a year we met closely, funny thing is that it was in another guy's room and he didn't know me & her girlfriend know each other. The guy left us alone in the room when he going to the bathroom, then I got a chance to take a good look at her. Her face was if she use mortuary puffs, her smell was of feminine typical but not typical of her, her eyes were deeper and darker, her clothes were nothing like anything I ever thought she could ever wear. Her voice was still toned as soft as it used to be but her words and her vocal were contaminated than I could ever imagine of her. that’s when I realized I don’t know the women next to me, she is not the same lady I fell for, there is nothing that I admire about her reflection. I mean yeah I like those snoop looking bitches, but I love them because I know nothing about how they used to be and their much better being. Although she looked more embarrassed of the situation at that moment, she gave me those visuals like she is trying to prove a certain point to everyone. I never said a word to her but in my mind questions were flowing endlessly, questions like is she aware of who she became? Does she present her self in this way at home, to her parent, old friends or it’s only a campus thing? Is she possessed with some kind of evil spirit, a devil worshiper of some sort? Is this what her previous room mate did to her or is it what she made her self? Is she focus on her future with books or that’s her future she’s living? The guy came back and I made up an excuse to leave him together with the creature.

Normally I should be upset with how we ended but I am not, I really feel so sorry and disappointed for what she has became and hope she somehow find god immediately to revive her soul.

Game Change

This lines were one one my experimental line, how i wish you could actually hear this. 

anyway drop some comments below.

That krypton, to that chi-town, that fly shit in ma uptown.

I'm living it, I'm saving it, handle it like on my laptop.

Who’s getting it, who’s feeling it, who sharin my blood top.

I've done it, I've killed it, now tell me who’s level to compete with.

Tell me who gave you that obligation to fuck with me bitch.

Me have overnight success compared to ‘em hoe witch.

I eat ‘em y'all niggas such as my last sandwich.

Shit glowin’ now, shit blowing down, she said she’s living the life now.

I ain't fallin’ for that, yeah girl not ever not now, uh.

‘Em Sissy niggas fuck with me, but i ain't blaming ‘em cos that's closest they ever get to plain foul.

They ain't gettin it please Prof De Layed, please teach em mo.

I don't sporticulate in any way but man i really ball.

In the game we bout to excrete em, like its abortion.

Success, we get it in different sizes call it unfair apportion.

Smear all ‘em faces with a hot surprise lotion.

Fetch boy, get this cash quick, light motion.

Get the taste of this life, could've sworn its custard.

Since I’m feeling so big now, I’m growing mustache.

Fake niggas a holding it down, like some froze mustard.

Just wait till the sun comes out, they turn to bastards.

The routine suddenly flipped aside, accept this new shit over here.